So, I have a cold. Yes, that’s the third time I’ve started a post that way this week. So let me say it again. I HAVE A COLD! Poor me. I hate being sick (repetition), I want to go back to bad (repetition), I’m just trying to reach my quota for posts (repetition).
I’m fooling around with you. Yeah, I’m sick. I’m getting better (hopefully). I may or may not be working for 2 hours this afternoon depending if I feel up to it. If I do, I’ll be wearing a mask again. Not working tomorrow.
So, I have a cold. Just finally started to really settle in, I’m just going to lie here and watch TV, drink some cup of soup, and hope I get better soon. I hate being sick.
I’ve got a cold. I hate colds. I’m going away now until I feel better. Just wanted to meet my daily quota of posts. Bleh. 
I’m going to go pick up some OTC cold remedies and then go back to sleep before going to work…in a mask…to prevent any spread of this cold. Good thing its only the early symptoms, so nothing more than this big ass cotton ball around my head, and leaky, runny nose.
I just want to go back to bed.
Found which post the “CHRISMAS” tag goes to and fixed it. Funny, that I never noticed it before. Oh well, I’m a terrible person.
So onto other things, I’ve almost finished all my Christmas shopping. Only have one or two things I was unable to purchase online. I don’t like to go Christmas shopping because the amount of people, and how rude every single one of them are, gives me anxiety. This doesn’t happen at any other time of year, but when people start getting that crazy glint in their eye, all because they’re miserable or caught up in the act of consumer culture, I just want to run.
Sigh, why can’t everything I want to purchase be available online or at least online at a good price?
So, I’m broke as hell but still decided to check out Canadian Black Friday Weekend sales at the local Walmart. Even if I had cash, I wouldn’t have been able to take advantage of the sales I wanted, primarily Skyward Sword for $40 and Batman Arkham City for $30. I guess I got lucky in that way. Look on the bright side and all that.
I can’t remember if I posted yesterday and I’m too lazy to check. Anyways, all this week I’d been having issues sleeping, and after work last night I went to bed. Ok, not RIGHT after work, but around 7:30. I ended up sleeping until 6 this morning. I guess my body really needed to sleep.
Worked this morning, and it sure was slow. I assume everyone was just away, probably across the borders just partaking in crass commercialism. I don’t care. Slow work days can sometimes be good.
More unexpected spending incoming. Remember that “exhaust” smell my sister said she smelt? I finally caught a whiff of it, and ended up opening windows and lowering my furnace to as low as necessary so that it wouldn’t be used to much and so we wouldn’t freeze. Yesterday, I received quite a few tips at work, which I was originally going to put towards buying something for me during this weekends sales. Not anymore. Those tips, plus whatever other money I can scrounge up, will now be put towards calling the furnace man in to check it out. I really hope its not bad.
So in no particular order, here we go.
I haven’t been sleeping well for the last 4 days or so, I can count the number of hours I have actually slept on one hand (that being 5). I’m not a happy camper. I’m tired but I’m not. Not fun.
I was walking my dog in the melting snow earlier, and realised that my memory and creativity used to be a lot better when I was younger, and I think it was due to all that amateur musical theatre I used to do up in to CEGEP. I did alot, and I used to have to remember a lot lines. I was one of those middle ranged actors, nothing big, nothing too little. I generally played the minor character bit parts with a lot of lines (or one or two songs) per play. Forcing myself to memorise all my minds had the added effect of forcing me to keep my mind and memory sharp. I don’t have that sort of mental exercise anymore. I’m disappointed.
Les Miserables is playing on PBS, and its such a great musical. GREAT! I’ve always enjoyed it. I know I don’t have the vocal range, but when I was younger I liked to occasional sing along to some of it. Good fun.
I went to work for the first time since Saturday. Still didn’t tire me out enough to sleep.
I’m also cold right now, and have no idea if my furnace is leaking exhaust or not. My sister said she smelt something “exhasuty” (not a word) in the air after our furnace ran for a while. That’s bad.
I think I may have just enough money from tips to purchase myself a copy of Skyward Sword or Batman Arkham Asylum. This was after having no cash from being hit from unexpected bills this week.
I apologise for the lack of coherence tonight. 5 hours of sleep is messing with my mind. I’m going to try to sleep now. I’m so tired.
Also, I just noted I have tags for CHRISTMAS and “CHRISMAS”. So disappointing, no I’ll have to go look through my posts and find where the misspelling originated from.
Yeah, that’s a lot of question marks, but you know what I don’t care. I just came inside from shovelling. Its not a bad amount of snow, but I can already feel it in the middle of my back. That’s the only thing I hate about snow.
I’m currently sitting here relaxing, watching a Giant Bomb Quick Look of WWE ‘12.
I don’t know anymore. I’m so far removed from wrestling, that I have no idea who any of these characters are, and it just doesn’t interest me all that much. I was never huge into wrestling, but I always enjoyed the games. There was something so relaxing about just hammering on some dudes with grapples and finishers, but now its just the same year in, year out. My interest has waned.
So I do enjoy my time on this blog, even if it doesn’t seem like it. As you could probably guess, I don’t have anyone reading this but myself. Its nice that way. This is supposed to be practice, a means to get myself writing something, and doing something each day, even if its just posting a stupid photo, or writing something of little to no consequence.
Recently, I’ve been looking over my Blogger stats and see all these different websites popping up. For a moment I was surprised. Did I have an audience? Were people reading my daily musings? When this moment passed I started researching the referring sites. Apparently I’m receiving something called “referred spam” in which a nefarious site (most of which seem to be hosted out of Russia) attempts to get me to click on their link to find out who they are to either increase their page views, install malware/viruses, or to just promote their own site. Apparently, there is nothing that I can do about this, so I’ll just be ignoring these sites. That said, its pretty annoying, and I don’t like it.
Now I can go back to being alone here, writing for me and nobody else. Maybe one day I’ll actually do something that draws someone to my blog of their own accord, something they will enjoy. I’m in no rush, I don’t care. Just me, my laptop, and my thoughts. Oh, and my dog, I can’t be forgetting him (especially when he’s trying to drag me away from my computer to feed him, early I might add).
I thought I was getting ahead. I’ve got a more or less part time job, and only a handful of bills to pay. I had wiggle room, I finally had some cash that I could spend on myself, specifically to get a haircut, and maybe to get my dog washed and groomed before Winter properly sets in. I got a phone call earlier, I’m not going into specifics, and now I’m completely broke and then some. I just sat down for the last hour or so wrapping coins just to make sure I’d have enough to cover this new found expense plus other bills. I think I might come up short actually. Oh well, I’ll have to cut into my grocery bill maybe and hope I can get through the next two/three weeks on less. It shouldn’t be too bad. Even though on top of this new found expense, my hours were cut by 4 so I’ll be getting even less for each pay period.
This just sucks.
I really do want to just cry. Not a good thing to feel when you’re finally getting a head a bit.
So yeah, this more or less a follow up to my previous post. Don’t know why I didn’t just include these links yesterday,. Here are the links to UN-GO and Chihayafuru.
I just really enjoy both series and wanted to share. I hope you enjoy them as much as I currently am.
Good night.
Out of this anime season, I’m really enjoying UN-GO. Just wanted to get that out there. Quality.
Though Randy’s pick of the season is Chihayafuru, so awesome. Find a stream of it, you won’t be disappointed.
Today I ran around like a chicken with its head cut off. It was just that busy. Surprising since usually its slow as hell on a Saturday, and I can usually get all I need to get done well before the end of my shift. I’m taking about my work, in case you can’t figure that out. Ugh. Can’t wait for this day to end, just so I can go to sleep. Tomorrow I clean, and then finally write.
I’m completed wiped after a very hectic, and annoying day. Suffice to say I worked hard for my money. I came home to a complete utter mess and I put my head in my hands, and just sighed. Tomorrow I go to work, come home, clean, and then sit down and write. Sunday, more cleaning, and more writing. Monday, relaxation for the most part until I work in the evening, and then two days of rest.
Also, I apologise for missing a post yesterday. I came home and was in bed by 8:30pm. I’ve got no life.
Might be a repost, too lazy to check. Going to sleep now, tired from work.
ZZZZZ…
Someone donated two pounds of Jamaican Blue Mountain Coffee to the place I work. I was elated when told to brew a pot and sell it at out regular price to our customers, maybe asking for a little donation if they like it. I’ve had Jamaican Blue Mountain before, and can still remember the taste, and I was happy to share it with people who may not have had the chance to try it before.
So I made the pot, and gave it to the first people who walked in, asking them to come back with feedback on what they thought. Ten minutes later, they came back and asked if they could have the regular coffee we sell instead because this didn’t taste right. I was surprised. I poured myself a cup and had a taste, and told them I may have brewed it too weak and to come back next time I was on and I’d figure out the correct ratio of water to grounds.
Last night, after doing much research and math, I figured out an amount that would maybe make it a little strong, but still drinkable. So I walked into work, got out my measuring cups, did my thing and brewed another pot of Jamaican Blue. This time I wasn’t taking any chances, this time I took the first cup from the freshly made pot…and it was a complete failure.
First off, the coffee tasted like an ashtray or dirty dishwater or both. This was not the Jamaican Blue I remembered. Second off, without an hour of drinking the coffee, I was hit major stomach upset and pain. Signs that the coffee was stale. I’ll have to check in with my boss to see if they still expect me to sell it, but myself I will not be drinking any.
I’m currently very far behind on my attempt for this years NaNoWriMo. Initially, I set out to just wing it, sit down day one and start, see where the story would bring me. Unfortunately, this plan was the absolute worst thing I could do. By going into this in such a way, my story refuses to come together beyond an initial premise:
A Man wakes up and sets out to destroy the world.
This premise coupled with one of the bleakest openings I’ve written (or read) has resulted in zero progress. The premise could result in an interesting tale if handled properly, but I don’t think I’m up to this story this time round. As it is now, I’m abandoning this story and tabling it for another day.
This does not mean I have given up on NaNoWriMo, this just means that this years attempt will not be completed before the deadline of 30 November 2011. I will going back to the drawing board, and over the next few days will be planning out another story from scratch. When Saturday afternoon/evening arrives, I plan to begin the writing process once more. For now, I will rest, and tomorrow I’ll look over some old story ideas to see if anything is promising.
This will be yet another one of my failures recently, but I’m hoping it is one that I will learn from.
Yet another lazy day, and it looks like yet another lazy week is in the pipeline. Other than work, I’ve got nothing to do this week. I think in my off time I’ll sleep or something. I just don’t know anymore.
I’ve had a more or less uneventful week. I’ve worked, done some Christmas shopping, and little else. Its not even pass US Thanksgiving and I’ve begun to Christmas shop. I need to finish everything before the stores start opening late for the holidays as I do no like to be around all those crazy people. One of these days I’ll snap while Christmas shopping and seriously hurt someone. Their rudeness gets on my nerves and I just don’t want to deal with them.
Sigh…Steam got hacked, possible encrypted CC and personal information taken. This and PSN hack make me hate the internet sometime.
I’m just going to leave this here and walk away. Always loved this poem and it sticks in my head to this day. Typed up from memory so if there are any errors they are my own. Enjoy!
“Fire and Ice” by Robert Frost
Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I’ve tasted of desire
I hold with those who favour fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To know that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.
I have all the luck, yet another day where I feel unwell. I have no idea what is wrong this time, but I’ve got a sneaking suspicion that I have an infection of some sort. A lymph node appears to be swollen and the swelling goes all the way up to my ear, so my face feels lopsided and achy.
Right now I’m just killing time before I cook my supper; Making pizza. Hooray!
Before I move on to important things, I did not make the above animated gif. I found it. All the other gifs seen on this blog were made my me. So enjoy them and please if you use them don’t link back to the original source. Now to more important things…
THe above image perfectly depicts how I feel after coming home from work: wired and antsy. I’m happy to be doing something with my time other than sitting around doing nothing. Unfortunately, work is already wearing me down and eating up all my time. I can confirm that I will not meet my goal of completing a 50000 word novel by November 20, 2011. I am OK with this. I am still participating, and I’m going to write as much as I can before the deadline. I’m just taking a few days to plan and brainstorm, as my original story idea isn’t panning out. So back to the drawing board for now.
At the moment I’ve got two ideas, I don’t know if they’re good ones, but I think they lend themselves to a story better than what I have now. Either I’m finally going to write the story of The Santa Claus Strangler or take the idea from my failed collaboration with JD, and just write the whole story from scratch, but with the story progressing entirely how I saw it.
Wish me luck.
I remember this one off clip from Conan' O’Brien from years back. They had to use all the sketches they put together but could never fit into any of their segments. It was real random stuff, and I could see why they had problems. One part has stuck with me all these years, and to this day, I can find no record of this sketch.
What I’m looking for is a clip of PIZZA GHOST. There were two bits in that whole segment where it was used. I remember almost nothing about it beyond the image of a Pizza Box (?) popping up and yelling, “PIZZA GHOST” <Spooky Voice>. I still giggle just thinking about it. I will find Pizza Ghost one day.
One day.
I hate Christmas. Everyone has to be so difficult and contrary. No one will give me a straight answer when I ask them what they would like or what they need. ARGH!
I REALLY HATE CHRISTMAS! TOO MUCH STRESS!
Second full day of work, so so tired. Luckily, tomorrow I only work the morning, 4 hours, and then a day off, and then back in again. Really messed up schedule. Guaranteed 16 hours a week minimum, 28 maximum. It all depends on what’s going on that week.
Just so tired.
No progress on my novel. I’ll be spending tomorrow evening making a basic plan of it, as I had a notion. An old notion, but something that would work for a novel. I’ll try to write something substantial Sunday.
I’ve not written a single word toward my novel today. I am absolutely terrified. On the plus side, I started officially working. Its not much, but I’ll be working 28 hours a week. Definitely enough to get by on for now. Tomorrow night I’ll have to sit down and try to make up for the lack of writing. Part of it I think is that I just don’t know what I want to write, the other part is that maybe what I’m attempting to write isn’t any good to begin with. I’m almost tempted to just say screw it, scrap the 400 words I’ve written and plan over the next few days an actual story. I don’t think I’ll be able to just write without some sort of a plan or guideline. But I’m not quitting. I will attempt this endeavour, and I don’t care if I succeed or fail. The journey (CLICHE ALERT) is what matters in this.
The first day isn’t even done, and I’m already regretting participating in this years NaNoWriMo. I am so unprepared for this undertaking and I don’t like where its taking me. I’ve written barely 400 words and oh lord is it bleak. My story begins with a man waking up, realising he’s miserable, and deciding to set off on a journey to end the world.
BLEAK.
I don’t know if I’m just being hateful, or what. My Protagonist just told a bunch of birds that he’s going to sing the song that ends the world. I don’t know where this story is going, or what. I already know I’m not going to finish it. It has to be a false start.
Once again, BLEAK.
I’m going to stick with it for now, but I’ll probably call this a wash before the month is through. Maybe it’ll help me work through things, or something. Ugh.
I really don’t know why I did this, and I know I’m going to fail. I will be participating in this year’s NaNoWriMo. For those not in the know, NaNoWriMo refers to National Novel Writing Month, which usually falls in November of each year. It is a challenge to write a 50,000 word novel in 30 days or less. I’m going into this blind. I don’t have any particular story, no characters, nothing. I will fail this. I know it, but you know what? I don’t care. I’m writing this for me, nobody else. It’ll be bad, but if I can do it, I’ll have something to be proud of.
This is actually the third time I’ve attempt to write a novel in my short 27 years of life. My first attempt was in High School, when I had planned to write a short Fantasy novel as a present for my father, based on a shared love of JRR Tolkien. I never got past the planning stages and got bogged down in the backstory of my characters. My second attempt was a few years ago, it was to be a collaboration with my buddy JD. I had wanted to go into it blind, and just write a chapter, hand it over to him, and have him react to it and so on and so forth. That failed miserably, and I know it was me who held it back. Once again I got hung up on the back story of the characters. This time, I’m going in with nothing, just an opening line.
I’m hoping that this for once doesn’t end up in failure.
